Dear Overthinking Self

Dear OverThinking Self,

The thinking part is highly regarded, but "over" just tips the balance. I witness you when you get on a role, and sometimes I follow to see how far you will go... You are a great storyteller, but a bit repetitious. Let's just say I sleep much better when you take a break.

Where did you come from? Who let you loose?  Was it schooling that gave you permission? Instilling in me analysis + synthesis and underling + note-take? Who taught you to create these "non-versations" (as my husband likes to call them)? You know the ones where you work out what you Should have said or done... you must be in cahoots with EGO.

You know when I really met you?  10 days of silence... Vipassana. Woah... I saw you in full flow... I saw how you lead to physical sensations on my body and emotions...then I saw you settle down. Ahh... I CHOSE MY THOUGHTS.

This is meant to be a love letter you say... okay, I love your ability to plan and be forward thinking. Helping me to come to sound decisions + to keep an open mind - infinite possibilities. You help me to see the good in all situations (we are pretty good at that), you are quiet thoughtful. Deep down you are calling out for happiness + wellbeing. You want to be tamed. I TAKE RESPONSIBILITY.

I really love it when you are bursting with creative ideas + exciting possibilities. You make me smile at memories past + the dreams in the making + focus on the NOW. I love when you let intuition lead the way. I love how you pull past knowledge into the present to present new findings, comnections + insights.

I love how you step back while Creative Self take the floor.  #100daysofcollagedlife has been like healing balm for you.

You like to be acknowledged. I'm going to keep witnessing you + cultivating meditative practices to keep our relationship on good terms. I love that we aways get to choose what content we overthink about... I CREATE MY BEST LIFE

Love + Be Wonderful

♡

Me ×× P.S. these #lovelettersofmay have been good for you. Writing it all out has always worked for you. Also, we are reading Wayne Dyer's Your Erronous Zones and he left us some good reminders + tactics to keep us on good terms.

this is part of a series of love letters to self i wrote as prompted by @littleolovebird on instagram over a year ago. They are gems to me, so i will continue to share them her in my musings adding new insights and resources as i see fit.

Facing Shadows (Dear Fearful Self)

Dear Fearful Self,

I am pretty sure you're around for a reason, I think i signed up for you to join me before I came here. I think you came along on the ride to remind me of things I might forget in the passage.

Fearful self the only thing is I let you decide things a little more than I care to admit, I thought I could keep you in the shadow and pretend you were not there. I had a master plan to fire you from your job, to get rid of you completely, it was going to be a systematic job... but lucky for you I received several insider tips (thanks to inquisitive self for always being on the look out). The tips said I could keep you around as a guide to remind me when I need to look closer at my worries and look at their validity. Turns out your concerns tend to keep us in the past and future, yeah I know its a shame because there is only ever NOW. Ha, imagine that.

Fearful self sometimes we have passed up experiences and opportunities because of what we thought might happen or what others might think or because we have set arbitrary rules about what we can and can not do. Fearful self you seem afraid of the unknown and stuck in perfection. You tend to be a downer, I'm being a bit harsh, but it's time we work out our boundaries because I KNOW life is not meant to be a full time struggle.

So all this to say I am keeping you around (I mean you are a part of me), but we are going to bring all your concerns to the table with Loving Self and Courageous Self before we make any final decisions, cool? Great. Deal. We can get through this together.

LOVE + LIGHT

Me

ae Wonderful

♡

LaToya

Dear Inquisitive Self

Dear inquisitive Self,

I love your desire to dig deep. You are a {storycatcher}, a collager of all things found and foraged with a dash of wanderlust. You are a lover of creativity + beauty with a passion for researching, making connections, organising + distilling things down to their ESSENCE.

I love your passionate quest for discovery + purpose. Inquisitive self, you are unstoppable at times in your pursuit of wisdom there is something beautiful about it all... At your best you are full of wonder like a child, seeing everything fresh and new.

You remember that all you seek is WITHIN. It is futile to try to find our self outside of our self. Let's remember to embrace the CURRENT EXPERIENCE... fully.

Inquisitive self let's go on adventures in the everyday together, let's hold hands and walk together observing our perfect imperfections + the limitless connections. 

Let's go easy on ourselves when trying to integrate the wisdom we unearth. There is NO "END" (the journey, the experience, the being is the goal) so when the answers seem to elude you, let's focus on just BEING at peace with where we are NOW.

II love that when we are in the now we embrace the many stories of those around us. We see the messages in nature. We see the beautiful simplicity within our seemingly complex world. Inquisitive self, you open up percieved boundaries of the mind + beliefs.

Inquisitive Self I love you for you, you have lead us on an amazing journey, let's continue to make the most of it. Thanks for having my back. We can do this!

LOVE Me

Be Wonderful

♡

LaToya

Resource: See Karen Anderson's TED talk for thoughts on being an opportunity maker, placemaker + pattern seeker, the collective mindset + getting involved in different worlds than your own.

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